I often struggle with the idea of the future, which is an odd thing for Destiny to struggle with, don't you think? I mean, with that name, I should have more faith in what the future holds, I should have some trust in my fate. But I don't. I admit I have often struggled to have faith in God's plan for my life, only because I am very good at screwing it up. What's worse, everyone still thinks my life is perfect and I am a genius, which makes it harder because no one thinks I am struggling at all. Newsflash: I struggling in  community college, I have no job, I cannot drive, and I am about to end my term as Student Government Public Relations Officer, thus losing the only "prestigious" title someone my age can have.  So with all of this happening to a "good girl" does make me lose faith in some glorious future, in this life and the next.
But all of this aside, I feel like I can do the right things, the hard things, but maybe I am one of those people who was not meant to go to college. I can still be a productive member of society without a degree, right? Wrong. According to society and the outstanding amount of pressure from my family, your worth is pretty much dependent on the stupid piece of paper. So, in the eyes of society, I am a lazy no-good bum who deserves to be homeless and starving. God bless America! Okay, that was harsh, especially for me, but I feel like that is what society is drilling in my head. And, personally, I believe that to be complete nonsense.  I have been in classes of lazy slackers, some of whom cheat on every test and assignment, yet, in society's eyes, they are better than me because they got away with it, and, in the end, they got that piece of paper and I didn't. My parents also told me never to be a rat, which kills me knowing that I am expected to know exactly who is acting this class by cheating and not do anything about it! What  kind of philosophy is that!?
I have learned from the Bible that God did not come to be "socially acceptable" he came to stand up for what was right. He was blameless and sinless, and did call people out and offend others. He still had friends, but society hated him.  Sure, I am a sinful person too, but I accept the consequences of my laziness and procrastination and realize that the situation I am currently in is my fault and my fault alone.  I can accept that. And I do believe there is justice, but not if we just turn a blind eye to everything. But then there is this whole "speck in your brother's eye, plank in your own" thing that says you shouldn't call people out because you think that you're better than them. That is the real reason I guess I don't "rat them out" because I have been tempted to cheat, and probably have before although I cannot think of a specific instance off the top of my head.  But perhaps this whole concept doesn't even apply here. I don't know. But cheaters tick me off. Majorly.
But now is time for more brutal honesty. I am a morally corrupt human being too, with sins of betrayal, pride, selfishness, sloth, and many others counted against me. And now I am trying to be accountable for it, take responsibility for it all, and it really, REALLY sucks.  I know I'm not earning God Points or anything for it, but it is the right thing to do. You see, despite everything, I still believe in truth and righteousness, and with what little faith I have, I believe in justice. I don’t believe good people prosper and bad people fail, because in reality, we are all bad people. I believe bad people who know they are bad people and try to fix it become better people (not good, just better), while bad people who think they are good people never change, or may even become worse. I also believe that bad people who ask Jesus for help to become good people, even though they can never really be good people, are saved IF they truly believe they are bad people that need to try to fix themselves and know that they need help from a good person, in which, there is only one. Jesus.
All of this is to say that taking the "high road" really does make doing the "good" and "right" thing a lot harder.  When you try to be responsible for your mistakes, you go down HARD., and you realize you make a lot of mistakes. Maybe this is just another one of those mistakes, being envious of those who do the wrong thing and get away with it, where I will almost always get in trouble, and am held accountable for mistakes I didn't even know I made. That frustrates me, but perhaps that is more of a personal issue. But remember Job, who did the right thing and God let Satan tempt him and completely ruin everything he had, and yet, Job did not despair. No, Job continued to praise God under every circumstance, even when the people around him had more possessions, Job had more faith, and for that, God rewarded him. By persevering in honesty and integrity, you are following Christ, which is never easy, and no one claimed it was, but one thing is for sure, God made it clear that continuing to follow him will be worth it in eternity.